Hand it over.

My mom used to always tell me:
"If you can't handle it, hand it over to God."

I hated this.

I hated hearing her tell me what to do, tell me to hand it over to "god" -whoever/whatever that was, tell me I "couldn't handle" something, and above all, preach to me about religion. But the one thing that I have learned thus far during my short life, is that Mom is always right.

The way I am living today, is a subconscious affirmation of living out the lessons I have learned from Mom while doing what I need to do in order to survive and still being happy living my life the way I want. The two things I realized that I want in life are to be creative and to be happy. I left the rest up to "god" or the "universe" to decide for me. I simply "handed it over," as she would say. I left my worries on the plane and told myself that I would do what I had to do, and to be positive and happy while doing it.

Lucky for me, the things that I "had to do" are exciting, fun, and creative. Still, however, they are hard work and I am accomplishing them independently. I have to constantly put myself out there and overcome my own insecurities in order to succeed everyday. Even though I may only be two months deep in my journey of self discovery, I have already learned that if you are willing to work hard, willing to push yourself to try harder than you think you can, and willing to adapt to situations you are not comfortable with, you will succeed. You will also find yourself in the process and you will be proud of what you can accomplish.

I am. And all I had to do was be willing, and to hand it over. I may not be religious, but I am spiritual, and I truly believe there is something greater than you and me, working it's way into our lives everyday.